The internet is for insomniacs

To start, I think I can rightly say that i am one of the few people my age (teen…) who knows what it’s like to be fully wide awake at 4:25 am. I also believe that i am one of the few people who can go completely without sleep for two nights in a row…and feel fine the next day. (Maybe a bit tired, but I’m always tired.) I love the internet at night, b/c sometimes I feel like I’m the only person not asleep, and it’s extremely reassuring to know that you haven’t gone into some sort of twilight-zone like state where you’re the only person on earth. I like the twilight zone (the original one) but I haven’t seen many episodes and I find it rather cheesy. (I’m not sure why this adjective makes the slightest bit of sense, but I guess It does…) I think i can officially say that I am over the annoying orange word. I can listen to He Is We which would be previously classified as #painfulmusic and is now classified as #amazingmusic b/c I don’t think of him any more. I haven’t seen him in eight months (well, I drove by him, but he didn’t see me so it doesn’t count) since The Day, and i think I’d be fine with seeing him now. Also, I went to School yesterday (/today, whichever it is) and everyone tried to get me caught up on the latest gossip in a matter of seconds. Major brain overload…anyway…I love the internet. I think I might stay up until six and watch the eclipse….that’d be cool.


Banned Books Week!!!

It’s banned books week (you probably guessed from the title…)!!!! So many books have been challenged and/or banned throughout history. There are legit reasons for banning books (religion, sex in children’s books etc.) but many of these but many of these reasons get twisted into excuses. Why do we ban books? Why do humans have the urge to protect other people from things when it’s not our place to protect them? Fear. We are human and we are afraid of so many things. We are afraid that our children will be influenced by these books that may have content/subject matter we don’t agree with. We are afraid that we will be punished for reading something that our intuition says is wrong. We are afraid of magic. Harry Potter (and many other books) are banned and challenged in so many places because they contain magic. We make excuses for this fear such as ‘magic is evil’ or ‘my religion dictates that I should’ but we are really hiding behind this curtain of safety. The only way for us to rid ourselves of fear is to face our fears. I used to be afraid of zombies and I wouldn’t watch Tv for a while because there was a zombie movie commercial on regularly. Then, I researched zombies, I read zombie books and looked at zombie pictures, and began to take a humorous point of view on zombies. I even side with zombies in the zombie/unicorn nerd debate but that’s for a different post. I faced my fear of zombies, and now I’m not afraid of them anymore, and even think they’re cute. As a society, we need to face our fears about these topics, and stop creating excuses for unjust censorship. Another reason to read banned books is to learn new things. Thanks to one of my previous teachers, I read Huckleberry Finn (I didn’t love it, but it was informative and well-writen) and learned about what life was like at that time. I also learned that in that time period, ‘nigger’ was a socially acceptable (albeit derrogatory) word to describe someone with dark skin, particularly an african-american person and/or a slave. I am now aware that this word is very offensive and not appropriate and socially acceptable today. I read this book, and I used it as a chance to learn about cultural differences. I don’t plan on ever calling someone that term, and I try very hard to be prejudice free. It should be up to parents to tell their children what to read and watch, not the libraries. We need to stop being afraid, and learn from other things. Read a banned book. It’s good for your mind.


(sorry, I’m not a very well organized writer but I hope a made a valid point.)


That’s a funny word….Anyway, I hurt my knee (I have no clue how) but it has hurt for three weeks and isn’t improved all that much. Arnica and advil are doing absolutely nothing….neither is ice. anyway (I just remembered! I used to say anyways and my mom would tell me there was no such word) I am bummed b/c I am missing the rollerblade season and I hope it gets better soon because I the fall is the best time to rollerblade (the spring is ok, but there;s a bunch of rocks left over from snowplows).


I am an introvert. That doesn’t mean I am crazy, or rude, or shy, or that I enjoy being alone all the time, It just means I have better things to do than to answer random questions you ask me, and reply with equally random questions that neither of us will remember the answers to. (aka make small talk). I have reposted this from Adam Young’s (Owl City) blog. The original post is from Carl King’s blog. I am guessing I should know who he is, but I have absolutely no idea…Here is his list of myths about introverts. (I told you this isn’t why I’m crazy!):

Myth #1 – Introverts don’t like to talk.

This is not true. Introverts just don’t talk unless they have something to say. They hate small talk. Get an introvert talking about something they are interested in, and they won’t shut up for days.

Myth #2 – Introverts are shy.

Shyness has nothing to do with being an Introvert. Introverts are not necessarily afraid of people. What they need is a reason to interact. They don’t interact for the sake of interacting. If you want to talk to an Introvert, just start talking. Don’t worry about being polite.

Myth #3 – Introverts are rude.

Introverts often don’t see a reason for beating around the bush with social pleasantries. They want everyone to just be real and honest. Unfortunately, this is not acceptable in most settings, so Introverts can feel a lot of pressure to fit in, which they find exhausting.

Myth #4 – Introverts don’t like people.

On the contrary, Introverts intensely value the few friends they have. They can count their close friends on one hand. If you are lucky enough for an introvert to consider you a friend, you probably have a loyal ally for life. Once you have earned their respect as being a person of substance, you’re in.

Myth #5 – Introverts don’t like to go out in public.

Nonsense. Introverts just don’t like to go out in public FOR AS LONG. They also like to avoid the complications that are involved in public activities. They take in data and experiences very quickly, and as a result, don’t need to be there for long to “get it.” They’re ready to go home, recharge, and process it all. In fact, recharging is absolutely crucial for Introverts.

Myth #6 – Introverts always want to be alone.

Introverts are perfectly comfortable with their own thoughts. They think a lot. They daydream. They like to have problems to work on, puzzles to solve. But they can also get incredibly lonely if they don’t have anyone to share their discoveries with. They crave an authentic and sincere connection with ONE PERSON at a time.

Myth #7 – Introverts are weird.

Introverts are often individualists. They don’t follow the crowd. They’d prefer to be valued for their novel ways of living. They think for themselves and because of that, they often challenge the norm. They don’t make most decisions based on what is popular or trendy.

Myth #8 – Introverts are aloof nerds.

Introverts are people who primarily look inward, paying close attention to their thoughts and emotions. It’s not that they are incapable of paying attention to what is going on around them, it’s just that their inner world is much more stimulating and rewarding to them.

Myth #9 – Introverts don’t know how to relax and have fun.

Introverts typically relax at home or in nature, not in busy public places. Introverts are not thrill seekers and adrenaline junkies. If there is too much talking and noise going on, they shut down. Their brains are too sensitive to the neurotransmitter called Dopamine. Introverts and Extroverts have different dominant neuro-pathways. Just look it up.

Myth #10 – Introverts can fix themselves and become Extroverts.

A world without Introverts would be a world with few scientists, musicians, artists, poets, filmmakers, doctors, mathematicians, writers, and philosophers. That being said, there are still plenty of techniques an Extrovert can learn in order to interact with Introverts. (Yes, I reversed these two terms on purpose to show you how biased our society is.) Introverts cannot “fix themselves” and deserve respect for their natural temperament and contributions to the human race. In fact, one study (Silverman, 1986) showed that the percentage of Introverts increases with IQ.

It can be terribly destructive for an Introvert to deny themselves in order to get along in an Extrovert-Dominant World. Like other minorities, Introverts can end up hating themselves and others because of the differences. If you think you are an Introvert, I recommend you research the topic and seek out other Introverts to compare notes. The burden is not entirely on Introverts to try and become “normal.” Extroverts need to recognize and respect us, and we also need to respect ourselves.

So I can blame high IQ on being crazy and socially weird…well now I can blame it on something!!!


I am a nerd…

I am a proud nerd. I like Sci-fi, books, math, etc. I don’t wear glasses, but I will have braces soon. I think there are a lot of stereotypes about nerds; some of them are true, and some of them aren’t. I think nerdy guys are cute. I am a Harry Potter fan, and I like british accents. (not entirely sure why this makes me a nerd, but that’s what my friends say…) I know who the nerdfighters are, and comicon…vidcon…leakycon etc, and I know what dftba stands for. Being a nerd, I have come across something called Caprica. I have no idea what’s going on (I can only watch the last 5 episodes online) but I like the amount of robots and dramatic speeches. Also Avan Jogia is apparantly on the show. He is Hot. (the capital wasn’t a mistake). My (somewhat) celebrity crush. Also, Charlie Mcdonnell is cute, but not to the HotNess of Avan Jogia. Sorry if this is weird. Darn teenage hormones.


some people think it’s hard to raise teen moms, kids with autism, spd, twins, triplets, teenagers in general, babies, gifted kids, adopted kids, or anything else like that. here’s what my family deals with:
3-babies under 1 (triplets), one with spd, one with autism, the other one born late.
2-5 year olds, one with autism.
1-8 year old, highly gifted, abused, in 4th grade.
1-10 year old, gifted, eye problems.
1-13 year old, highly gifted, spd
2-15 year olds
1-17 year old, 1.5year old daughter, pregnate with another child, lives with boyfriend, abused
1-18 year old, selective mute, highly gifted, spd

so, that is the list of kids (and 2 adults) in my family by age. We live in a 3 bedroom house, and we use one of the bedrooms as an office. None of us are physically handicapped, which is very helpful, but most of us have challenges which would make life hard in a family that didn’t consist of 12 kids, 2 grandkids and 2 parents. I love my family, but it makes it very hard sometimes. very often, we just take a break and do nothing for a day to catch up with life. Next time you think of how hard your life is, consider how it would be if you had that many people in your family or if you had a disorder.

Born on a Blue Day

First of, this is a book. Second, it is the autobiography of a gay autistic savant with epilepsy and synesthesia.

Disclaimer: If you have aanything against gays, or people with disorders, finish reading the disclamer, then don’t comment or read the rest of the post. I have an issue with prejudice and I think it’s stupid to have a problem with a certain kind of people. Also, would someone please explain to me why you would judge a whole group of people by the actions of one person? Many people have problems with muslims because of the awful actions of a group of extremists. There are Cristian extremists too, and they probably do awful things. That doesn’t mean all chrisitans or muslims are like that. And issues with race?!?!? How could someone judge a person by their skin color or where they come from? People who are gay don’t coose to be gay, just as much as people who are straight don’t chose to be that way. Please don’t be prejudiced against people. Not everyone can be perfect, even though we all try.

So, disclaimer and long rant aside, I can across this book about three years ago when my mom was reading it for book group (I think) and I asked her if I could read it. She hadn’t finished it yet, but she agreed. I was immediately taken by how real this story is. The narration is sweet and beautiful, and easily imaginable. I was also surprised by how this book made me aware that I did the same ‘color thing’ as Daniel Tammet (the narrator). I find it amazing how he overcomes so many hard things and still lives his life. This post was going to be about one moment in the book that is my favorite, but I wanted to give you some background (and a very long scolding) first. here it is:“Neil took me into the living room and we sat at opposite ends of the sofa and talked. After a while, he asked whether I wanted to listen to some music. Gradually, unconsiously, we found each other sitting closer and closer on the sofa, until Neil was holding me in his arms as i rested my head on his shoulder and closed my eyes, listening to the songs. Soon afterwards we kissed. We decided there and then that we were meant to be together. ” (apparantly, amazon doesn’t allow copy-paste so It took me a little while to type this) I think this is sweet, and even better that it isn’t dramatic or anything. Anyway, read the book. it’s good.

random vacation rambling

i usually come up with an idea before i blog about something but i havent had a lot of computer acess so my ideas have just floated aroun and eventually been crammed in a back part of my head. anyway all my thoughts are really jumbled tonight. ok where im trying to go wth this sentance is that i didnt know i havent blogged for so long because i have had all the same thoughts but theyve gone into another part of my head and not on paper. i think however that i have suffered emotionally because blogging is my alternate form of therapy when i am about three quarters of a country away from my real therapist person who is actually just a person who trys to make me sleep and less stressed which doesnt actually really help that much. all my thoughts are really confused and i jst havent felt normal. on pottercast they talk about hp but they dont even really seem to be aware that they are actuaklly books. right now im having those ort of three d thoughts that aremore like shadows and colors and drifting thoughts andnot so much words which makes them really hard to put on paper. ok i am way to confused to blog right now when i am in a better way to write.

i apologize for complete lck of punctuation and the bad grammar and spelling. i am typing this on a kindle which is terribly hard to do….

Lena Ducchannes

Lena Ducchannes is a main character in beautiful creatures. This book is very real to me, so much that the writers don’t really seem real, and I can’t remember their names.

I am very much like Lena. I have a lot of the same wacky habits, some I have subconsciously picked up while reading the books.

I always ahve a notebook.

I am a writer.

I write on my hands in sharpie.

I am worried about what’s going to happen to me.

I have words on my walls.

I have long hair, and some special charms.

I always wear converse.

My family is a little crazy, even though people don’t know it.


I just see myself in her. I think she is an amazing hcaracter and a strong person.

Funniest HP movie moment ever!

Hermione(hg):”See, over there? That’s Romilda Vane. She’s been trying to sneak you a love potion.” Harry(hp):”*brightly* really?” hg:”She’s only interested in you because she thinks you’re ‘the chosen one’!” hp:”*cockily* But I am the chosen one!” hg:*hits Harry on the head with newspaper*

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